to finally accomplish a life goal
I've had this blog for some times, but hasn't reached a year yet. However, I've had more fails than wins. And it shames me, but truth be told, I feel like I've gain more knowledge about this whole journey and what is right for me.
So, before my goal was concerned with weight. But as I faltered continuously, I found out something more important than just weight.
It was how I saw my body. And how I felt about it. It wasn't going to be about some stupid number anymore.
Now, my goal is to get a body that I'll be proud of. And this body will finally give me a life I dreamed of.
I will not give up now. It's 2012. Useless excuses are null and void.
THIS IS A HEALTHY BLOG. I LOVE FITSPO . <3 IT'S DEFINITELY THE NEW BEAUTIFUL ^^
We can do it~! XD
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P.S I am obsessed with Fairy Tail and One Piece, and a few other animes. So if you see your dashboard spammed with some stuff not regarding healthy weightloss, fitpso, etc, apologies in advance! ^^
Ever since I was little, I was always conscious about my weight and body image. But to make it worse, figure skating was my sport back then. I had been skating for a long time and it was my ultimate dream to go to the Olympics.
I was bigger than the other skaters, so I was EXTREMELY self conscious every single living day. I was afraid to do jumps, to improve myself, to skate to my full potential, because I was scared that people will laugh and make fun of me.
Due to money and family issues, I have stopped skating for some time. However, I am going to skate again when I gain self-confidence and my dream body! Even if my dream was crushed, I won’t stop doing what I loved. Skating was seriously my life, and it will never disappear.
You know, I just want to be happy. I just want to finally let go of that huge burden on my shoulders that is forcing me to hold back everything I wanted to do. The life I want to live is being held back right now. I just want freedom.
I don’t want to spend high school and my life sulking in the corner, looking down while walking through the hallways, wearing sweaters everyday, even if it’s 85 degrees outside. I just want to be confident.
And I’m fighting for it right now.
My brain, my heart, my life, is basically consumed in the darkness where self-confidence is thrown out the window. And I need that light, telling me that everything will be ok.
I want my body to be the last thing I worry about in 2012. I want to focus on my favorite things such as music, skating, and school. I want to expand my possible potentials that could be expanded if I just gave it try. But I can’t try when I’m like this.
You know, even I want to go outside and have fun… not stay home because I’m too scared of my body and weight.
Motivation?
I have TONS of motivation. Me watching anime just adds to it everyday! :D Fairy Tail and One Piece is basically my basis of motivation and I am not ashamed. Why? Because it’s not real. When I see real people in pictures, sure it gives me some hope and push, but it’s reality. It makes me think, what if… duh…duh…duh… It’s actually harder to explain than I thought..
But, with unrealistic stuff with anime, I see a more diverse possibility. Yeah, it’s hard to explain but… what works for me works for me! :)
My Fitspo? Erza Scarlet.
Now, I know having an anime body is physically impossible, but that’s my point. I’m going to work towards this, but I won’t be disappointed at the end, because, well.. It ain’t real! ^^
But Erza isn’t my Fitspo just for her rockin’ body.
Her beauty, personality, intelligence, strength, courage, just… everything about her is so amazing, I wish to be like her. I want to be as strong, and as smart as her. Yeah, yeah, you shouldn’t want to be like someone. But, this is also self-improvement. I’m improving myself to be similar to the image that Erza is. She is my ultimate motivation for everything.
I’m not going to have a body like Erza, but I’m going to aim for that and be as confident, and satisfied for myself! I really want a fit, toned, strong, and slim body.
Now that I think about it… anime boys who have good bodies motivate me too… lawls. Like, Luffy and Natsu. Because, it makes me think, omg these dorkable boys have such a fit body.. blah blah ahah! IDK~ I JUST LOVE IT. ^^
