to finally accomplish a life goal

she’s crying so much. 

i have a feeling there’s going to be noms. 

noms as in comfort food. -.-

it’s fine

today and saturday i don’t care

noms 

i need it too. 

well. working out in the next 10 min or so just BOOM. FLEW OUT THE WINDOW. 

thanks to this issue going on between my friends, i’m talking to them… 

i don’t mind… but yeah. 

had a nice coffee cake today. real delicious~ 

but i’m so stressed this week. i can’t wait for it to be over and be saturday already. 

i feel like indulging in delicacies. XD 

THANK YOU LADY!!!! 

i’m really mad. 

but i’m going to workout. because i’m mad. 

or whatever. 

this is serious.. like it’s my life on that phone -.-

I feel as if for the first time in my high school life or life in general, i finally chose a class which i’m ready to dedicate myself to, because I really want to learn. 

So, we have this socalroc program. 

and I wanted to register for classes under medical 

i chose three: 

-medical assisting

-personal fitness trainer

-(forgot..) 

and today, i got called in to finally determine which class i’m going to take. 

I chose medical assisting because i felt as if that’s what I needed to do… i was interested in it… but… not really. I just felt like it was my duty. You know, to be a doctor, or anything in that field. 

But today, i sat there thinking, this is a chance to finally do something for myself. 

I chose. Personal fitness trainer. 

Even right now, I’m just so happy. I never felt this way about choosing classes before. 

I really want to do this. I honestly feel as if I can say, I want to take this class because I want to. 

I don’t feel any unneeded pressure in choosing this class, so I know it’s the right one for me. 

I just.. felt that this was a big moment for me, because I always felt some pressure and burden in choosing classes. but not time. I can finally enjoy a class, which i know i chose for myself. not for my mom, not for education, but for me. 

SO GUESS WHO’S TAKING CLASSES FOR PERSONAL FITNESS TRAINER FOR JUNIOR YEAR???

:D  

For those who have read A Separate Peace by John Knowles (awesome book so far ^^) 

What household items can represent anything about the book (till CH. 9) 

Any answer is welcomed. I just have a lot of studying to do, and this little homework is weirdly giving me unneeded stress. 

thank you so much! 

schedule post coming soon. 

I’m really tired so I need to get everything ready for the next few weeks :) 

It’ll take some time. got anime to watch trololol

multitasking is my forte 

1. EMT. (epic meal time)<= we’re going all out today. i don’t regret anything
2. One Piece Marathon with the crew 
3. Making Banana Bread. 

me and my friend are going to ralphs and gonna go broke. 

then going to another friends house and that’s when the nerd party begins. XD 

FUCK YEAH ONE PIECE. 

Basically the New 2Y2M Challenge started when I started the 30 Day Shred on March 19!! 

I’m almost done with the first month!! 

This way I’m more motivated, because this is the longest time I’ve gone with awesome days without cheating, binging, blah blah, fast/junk food. 

So, after the first month, it’ll be the 30 day shred again from level one! and I’m going to try to do the couch to 5k in the mornings before school. 

Ok, so my rant. (feel free to scroll past. I just need to get this out of my brain, chest, body)

I want food. I’m just.. ugh this desire for comfort food has been going on for about 3-4 days. It’s a emotional hunger you can say, and when I look at my motivational stuff or think about why I want this, the hunger goes away. 

But the next day, I’m just wanting it again and again. And to be honest, it’s creating unneeded stress in my system. 

SERIOUSLY. I’m craving a whole pizza, ICE CREAM, cinnamon buns, A WHOLE DAMN CHOCOLATE CAKE, etc. This needs to stop. But I know it won’t go away completely. I’ve been staying strong for the 3-4 days, and the fact that I live next to Ralphs, and millions of other restaurants and shit does not help. 

I kept reminding myself to just stay strong till the 12th. And.. ugh IDK WHAT TO DO. 

I love how my stomach is changing and stuff.. but this stress is absolutely killing me. 

I find myself scrolling through tags of food to just visibly satisfy my hunger for these foods (pathetic i know) 

I’ve been doing so good, I don’t really want to ruin it, but I kept convincing myself that one day of bad eating will not kill me. AND I KNOW. I SERIOUSLY KNOW. 

But that thing is that, knowing I’m letting myself go for one day. I’m afraid I’m going to indulge a bit TOO much. Knowing that this one day is the only day I can get tired of these food… 

well… yeah. this is my rant. and then I saw that the 28th is not that far away, so I’m motivated again.. but this is going to continue tomorrow… blah…

OK. DONE. SORRY FOR THE LONG RANT. I’M OUT. LOG FOR TODAY IS NEXT XD

so, i’m getting a new haircut… or hairstyle. And I’m seriously in denial on what to get… because I had in mind what I wanted but I’m still indecisive.. 

God blessed me with ugliness so there’s nothing I can really do.. -.-

My current hair length is down to the top of my butt and it’s slightly layered with no bangs. 

I want to know if you guys have any suggestions on what kind of hairstyle to “draw attention” away from my nose. I have a wide, bulbous nose (it sucks ass. I freaking hate it. I try to “love it” but nope. can’t.) 

I have a oval face too, if that helps. 

I need anything. just anything to consider that can help give less attention to my nose. 

 I don’t wear makeup.. :(

and I searched everywhere on google but ..yeah.. 

THANK YOU SO MUCH!! 

I WAS IN THE MIDDLE OF WATCHING ANIME YO.

Tumblin on my phone.

Well, obviously it didn’t go as I wanted, but I’m not discouraged or anything. Since, I started… i don’t know getting serious by the end of it, so I’d say I regret a bit. :) 

I had a quite a few cheat days that just brought me down.. 

Let’s see… I started the 30 Day Shred on March 19 and it is now April 7th. 

I definitely felt and saw a difference( small difference), but I get impatient… Today’s the last day of Level 2 and tomorrow I start Level 3. 

But… I don’t know, I don’t really want to continue this anymore. Should I continue? I’d love to hear some thoughts honestly.. I mean, if I don’t feel like doing it, I won’t be giving it 110%. 

I also miss running.. I ran everyday, but I didn’t really feel or saw a difference. Maybe I’ll still continue 30 Day Shred? I’m still not sure right now, but I have a feeling I’m going to. 

-.- lawls

OK! Let’s see what I have in store to motivate myself. 

April 28th is the Korean Music Festival.. May 5th is a Fair at my city, and I have to do a booth… 

Final Decision? Restart the 2Y2M Challenge. I’ll be ending it on… Somewhere in the first week of June? Which is actually good for me :) 

I’m still thinking of what to do.. Restart 30 Day Shred and add a whole new workout to motivate? Or keep going with the 30 Day Shred..? I’M IN A DILEMMA. DX

argh. even as I type this, I’m still thinking… asdfhkjgdhkgheruialdhgerhfgheirguhger

I’ll give my final decision later when I finally get over this block of discouragement. 

FREAKING SPRING BREAK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!